311210 最后一天

2010年的最后一天

我真的很不舍

不舍这个充满回忆的一年

那个我鼓起勇气的一年

那个我成长许多的一年

那个我流了不少眼泪的一年

那个我比起前疯狂了的一年

我想

我会很想念2010

今年的最后一天

比往年不一样

不像别人

和朋友们聚会

不像别人

和男朋友约会

不像别人

聚在一起倒数

不像别人

疯狂一起倒数

今年

我只是静静

在家里度过这我不舍的最后几个小时

虽然爹地不在身边

但是我会很想他

有妈咪有阿姨有表姐和网友们

陪着我

已经足够了

我期待着2011

期待着我的新校园生活

期待着我的首次的驾驶

期待着我的第一份工作

希望2011会比今年更好

在2011年里

我会更勇敢

我会更争气

为了自己

会一直努力坚持下去

决不轻易放弃

现在是2010年12月31号

晚上的9点57分

身在 怡保

心在吉隆坡

再见了2010

2011

我正在迎接你

24-26/12/10

那个晚上

费尽了心思

终于让咱们的丁丁留下了眼泪

我们给你的生日惊喜

希望你会喜欢

也希望往后每一个生日

都会记得我们曾经给你疯狂的惊喜

不是很完美

也没有原定的幸福感

但是我们让你微笑让你流泪

感动之余倍感开心

记得要一直幸福下去

我们的寿星女 :)

这个不完美的旅行

却有着完美的感觉

我永远不会忘记

除了感动之余还是感动

咱们的阿铭长大了

看着她为了幸福奋斗

看着她为完美而坚持

姐妹

你值得让我敬佩

 

这个傻婆为了这个围巾

一路上一直努力织

一直没有放弃

还弄到自己不舒服

围巾的主人要珍惜

我祝福你们

 我们的不满

我们的打打闹闹

我们曾经的一切

我都会牢牢记住

你永远都是我心目中

最调皮的李嘉铭

只有你能对我大声吼

:)

　我们的幸福公主琪

一直都是那么温柔可爱

就是因为这样

我特别爱欺负作弄她

原谅我的无知

我就是喜欢你无奈的表情

羡慕你的可爱

羡慕你的温柔

羡慕你的气质

就是羡慕你

因为你有了我所有没有的东西

讨厌你

哈哈

记得记得

他会一直守护你

莫名的失落感

因为我羡慕了

我的圣诞愿望

今年例外特别

我希望

她们比我幸福

111210 童话里的王子公主

我即喜欢气球  也害怕气球

矛盾的心情

不能轻易爱上一个人

也不能轻易放弃一个人

不是吗?

我称不上对感情执著

对于现在的我

感情根本不算什么

有或无相差并没很大

或许少了它我会更努力拼搏未来

妈说我就像是

开花店或是婚纱店的老板娘

听妈这么一说

我就明白什么意思了

我爱帮别人策划惊喜策划浪漫

我最擅长也是我最爱

而我的惊喜我的浪漫从未出现

开花店的老板娘
 男友从来不会送自己鲜花

开婚纱店的老板娘

习惯性看着别人幸福的模样

麻木了

我享受看着别人的幸福

我享受策划别人的浪漫

就是享受

我的他不需要特别会给我惊喜

我的他不需要特别会给我浪漫

因为这一切我都会给他

人常说期望越大失望越大

所以我从来不期望什么

知足常乐

我常那么告诉自己

这世界上

存在多少的童话故事

这世界上

存在多少的王子公主

这世界上

存在多少的偶像戏剧

别傻了

踏实追求幸福总比幻想来得实际

别人的童话别人的王子别人的戏剧

是在于别人从前修来的福

想要非一般的幸福

现在好好修福吧

没有一样东西是不劳而获的

未来的我

会一直记得

曾经在我生命里

走过的路人甲

因为他们

我成长了

因为他们

我开始懂得了什么是爱

爱是就算付出也不在乎回报
而对方也一样
:)

december 6---challenges

it's been long time i never update my blog

out of time

can i have more time?

 recently keep busy studying 

finally spm still got 4 subjects only

hope it will over soon

i'm freaking tired

at first i thought it will be very best after finish spm

but when it finally going to over soon

i feel like don't want spm stop so fast

i don't know what the feeling of form 5 students

but recently im really headache

bout my future

not because my result bad

i got confident on my result

but i don't know how to explain the feeling

many things to worry

and dad n mum keep talk to me bout my future study

im confuse to be 18

can i back to childhood?

i miss it

after spm then christmas coming

2010 christmas will celebrate with buddies at genting

3 days two nights

i thought i will very happy bout that

but i don't

maybe is because a lot of stuff i haven settle

i still remember that my 2009 christmas wish 

i wish to have a bf this year christmas

opps end ups i don't have bf to acc me this christmas

but all my girl friends do have their bf acc them this christmas

how jealous am i

LOL

what to do

i have to accept the fact that no people want me

im single on 2010 chirstmas

wooohoooo i have to proud of that

i think im crazy

whatever

after the chritsmas n graduated trip

im going to interview job with my dear ceci

when i told my friends n cousin im going to interview

they was like "von,are you okay?you sure you need to work?"

i don't understand why they will think like that

im also a ordinary girl 

im not special at all

i also need a part time job

but honestly im freaking worry n nervous

it's my first time work

i just keep told myself

i can do it i can do it

that's what i can do for myself

after discuss with dad n mum

they allowed me to interview

finally i get their permission

i know it will be a very big challenge for me

but please trust me

i can do it n i will prove it to all of them

which college is better

im freaking headache bout this

and i don't know which course really do suitable me

what the hack

im gonna cry

the reason i wanna work

i want to save money

for my laptop

for my license fees

n some of my college fees

they ask me isn't your dad will settle all that for you

i mean are you crazy?

im already 18 next year

im not a small child anymore

i have the responsibility to pay all that

you think your dad pay everything for you should be proud?

hello shame on you

how old are you now

of course my dad don't let me work at the first time

but after i explain all that

he understand me well n let me go have a try

he just say

"girl,actually you no need to work,daddy already plan all for you.

but if you wanna have a try,i will let you go"

thanks to my dad

i love him

he always make me feel warm

for my laptop n money

i will fight for it

i will do my best

sometimes i ask myself

why the world so unfair

i sacrifice so much

but i didn't get anything

i know is not good to think like that

but im really tired to be a good girl

i just need someone who really do understand me well

n just give me some courage when im freaking down

that's all

LMAO

but im lucky to have a great dad n mum

they do understand me well

im the lucky one

thanks to my parents

im not that pretty

i know

im not that sweet

i know

im not that lucky

i know

but what i really know is

i got everything i want

that's enough

i don't have a rich family 

i don't have a big banglo

i don't have a pretty face

i don't have expensive stuff

but

i have a warm family

i have a small warm house

i have a fat cute face

i have all stuff that i want

n im here to say

i will not repeat anymore

im not going to move my house so soon

but i will move after this

but not sure when

don't ask me why

cause of some problem

so need to postpone 

:)

november 30---固执

最近的我

真的很不错

至少生活有起有落

这样才是生活吧

考试进行了一星期多

的确很疲惫

但是为了尽力考好最后一次的考试

我拚了老命也要考好

老实说我希望

大考赶快结束

因为真的有点累了

还是那一句

真的很羡慕也很欣慰

看到他们那么幸福

我也很替他们感到开心

顺便可沾一沾喜气

:)

家暴夫妻真的很幸福

才开始没多久

却感情就像老夫老妻了

本以为男的会欺负女的

谁知道出乎大家的意料

竟是女的欺负男的

打打闹闹

亲亲我我

真的很幸福

:)

羊先生和羊小姐

一点都不输家暴夫妻

同样沉醉在甜蜜的爱河里

男的傻乎乎却体贴

女的凶巴巴却体贴

很登对很幸福

:)

看见猪先生对米奇那么好

也觉得很欣慰

不管他们最后是否是不是有情人终情眷属

也一样祝福他们

米奇真的很幸福

猪先生比一般男生来得更体贴更温柔

:)

我希望时间永远停在这一刻

让幸福永远存在

没什么觉得遗憾

至少我努力过了

也争取过了

虽然没办法比他们幸福

我不介意

或许我的他还没出现吧

一切顺其自然

宝贝说不要为了一棵树放弃整座森林

时曾相识的一句话

我明白我明白

但是这棵树很特别

它让我有了一只以来都没有的勇气

或许的确真的有点难忘

是谁先说不要尴尬

却又是谁自己尴尬了起来

我很没用

我知道

:)

爱上宇珩的新歌

朋友们都结婚去了

歌词很贴切

把朋友们都结婚改去恋爱去了

朋友们都恋爱去了

就完完全全符合我了

有时我也会不服气 
总是差一点点运气
曾经小心 呵护的爱情
最後还是变成了叹息
为了幸福认真努力 
付出一百分的自己 就算是爱对我 多不公平
受伤了也会痊愈
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我还打算 把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及 遗憾的是 我不在 你的心里

有时会安慰我自己 
单身也是一种福气
去旅行 看电影 天晴下雨
再高兴也只有我自己
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我还打算 把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及 遗憾的是
我不在 你的心里
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我还打算 把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及 遗憾的是
我不在 你的心里
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我相信着 爱给我们的伤痕
不会平白痛的 再多转折
对的人 会出现的

对我常常会安慰自己

或许单身是一种福气

有他们在我身边

我就已经很幸福了

他们在我生命里占据了很大的部分

我的幸福会到来的

:)


最近的生活照
除了温习还是温习
手不离资料

我是乖孩子

有时候真的读到差点昏了
我希望战争赶快结束
我是时候回乡休养了

ignore my ugly tired face

我希望我能抽离胃痛的病魔

虽然已经好转了许多

但是我要的是完全康复

我答应会好好照顾自己

不会再生病了

我要和药说再见

有时候原谅我隐瞒着痛

只是不想别人替我这个没用的家伙担心

我家的大男人老爸

从来不擅长把感受说出来

我爱你三个字

手指能算得出他说过多少遍

虽不擅长表达

但我却擅长感受

他对我的关怀对我的爱

我通通收到

你的来电

的确很惊喜

让我回想起了很多我和你一路以来的回忆

你是最棒的爹地

没有人取代你

我只想说

爹地妈咪

要是有机会

我下辈子还要当你们的孩子

好好再孝顺你们一遍

我爱你们

故作坚强不是我的本事

我根本没有这种本事

坚强本来就是我与身居来的吧

能说是不想依赖别人

我的肩膀能给我珍惜的人

但我却不是很需要别人的肩膀

我就是那么的固执

或许也能说是因为脆弱久了

失去想寻找肩膀的斗志了

我觉得现在这样很好

坚强的我很棒

不开心哭一霎那就够了

生气大喊一霎那就够了

开心大笑一霎那就够了

简单的生活

简单的速调

比较有踏实感

原谅我的固执

因为我就是这样的女生

我在尝试找回最初的自己
我想我已经忘了

november 25---grateful

finally n finally

i finished bahasa melayu,english n history paper

sigh with relief

honestly i really felt tired

every midnight study

every early morning wake up

until i'm gonna sick

:(

but i know this feeling is just temporaily

if i can get good result in spm

why not

i feel worth for it

as i promise

i will do my best to get what i want

i won't make anyone dissapointed

still got 7 subjects to go

evon tee

fight for it

:)

every morning i wake up at this time to study

what you doing at this time

i think you all might be still in bed dreaming bout someone

LOL

i feel very down this few days

but i don't what the reason that make me down

maybe bout stress or maybe not

my friend always say the reason that i feel down

is because of him

i don't know true or not

but i think that is not important anymore

we're still friend 

without any change

:)

i always smile and laugh crazily

but do anyone know the truth behind the smile

i don't think so

maybe my acting skills is perfect

LOL

but for me

i think is better to give people happiness

than make people down or worry

i'm leo's girl

strong and tough girl

i know i can be like that

i need some time

feel warm and happy

see-ing 2 pairs of them

playing arround

how cute are them

:)

everytime i see them

i feel very happy

maybe i'm crazy

but maybe you don't know that feeling

the best feeling i ever have

see-ing your besties happy

the real and true feeling

i feel it

some of them ask me

when i found mine

the answer i wanna give

i don't know

haha

just let it be

i know he will appear one day

who's the one who hold my hand til the end?

i'm wondering

:)

i really grateful for everything

especially for all people who always by my side

thanks a lot

thanks to my besties

♥violet,qii and jane♥

cause of them

my secondary school life full of unforgetable memory

i will damn miss them after we leave school

you all are always my best jimui ever

thanks for by my side when i need you all

and also thanks to the superman kin

he's the one who accompany me when i'm freaking down

he give me lot of power

appreciate his support

don't worry superman

supergirl will always chrage full battery

i will be happy always

:)

and to my dear baby cecilia

she's always important to me

although we not always contact

but i know you still are the best baby for me♥

thanks for the supporting

i will always remember you

:)

lastly thanks to

my dear sister rachel and mean

my best brother kenneth

my cute girl kikobee and cm

devil benny,cha siew,papa,sai lou,baby
yang,roy,ccw,sen and many more

thanks a lot to you all♥

less contact

but i will remember you all

sorry if i never post your photo

and sorry to others that i didn't mention your name

anyway i will remember all of you

i love you all

:)

be myself

and do my best

i'm the supergirl

evon tee

november 19---jealous

i love this picha so much

without any reason

show my small eyes,big nose and big mouth

almost 'perfect'

LOL

i miss this hairstyle damn a lot

since i already cut and rebonding my fringe this wednesday

aiks

i promise to wait it long again and i will never cut it again

say bye bye to my doll fringe

:)

yesterday night after i finish my revision,blogger and tv section

i went to bed at 12 i think

but i can't really fall asleep

spm is coming soon

feel nervous and worry

skip

chit chat with that devil through sms

like to chat with him quite much

cause i can always zat him and bully him

LOL

sometimes when i feel down

he could really help me to stand up again

by doing nothing

between he never know that i'm down at all

we just always chat fei hua

anyway thanks a lot

he's a nice guy
girls can consider him
LOL

today i wake up quite early

jogging myself at the small garden behind my house

after that breakfast with mum

and for sure the next thing is revision again

keep study and understand all those komsas things

so that i can do well for my bm paper

no matter how i also have to get credit for my bm paper

if not i will kill myself

study until i feel sleepy dy so i decided to stop a while

and continue update my blog

whole table full of my paper

hope i will remember everything i study

daddy going sepang for 3 days

miss him a lot

hope can see him soon

before he went out

he hug me and told me to add oil and take care

feel touched and i almost cry

i love my daddy n mummy

they use to be be with me when i need them

i will do my best

so that won't dissapointed them

god bless me

i give my mum this

and she really go buy when i'm doing revision

thanks mummy

i love you

my favourite macha

:)

but i most like starbucks

mocha frappucinno+chocalate chips

i miss it a lot

who willing to acc me go after my spm?

recently coffee use to be my best buddy

it could help me to study in the midnight

the last thing

add oil all my dear freinds

i know we can do it

fight til the end

watching all my friends starting their relationship

feel happy for them

they're so sweet

making breakfast for each other

see-ing each other when they free

walking and hold hands together

caring each other

i'm wondering

when my prince will appear

tomorrow?one month?one year?five years or ten years?

i hope he will appear soon

 please don't hurt them

they're angel

they belong to happiness

best wishes for you all

:)

spm countdown

3 days

november 18---study hard

kind of crazy this few days

keep study and study

non stop

feel like i'm really hardworking

LOL

5 more days to SPM

quite nervous and tired

mummy keep tell me to do my best

so that i won't regret after this

i understand that

so i keep study without wasting any time

i know what i can do now is just to try my do best for more revision
i hope it will really help me to get good result in spm

actually i didn't think much of that

my friends use to be ask me how many A do you wanna get

i just answer them

i just need enough result to get in my ideal college

is doesn't matter i got A anot

but of course if can get A sure more better 

spm for two weeks then i will like out from jail

i got my full freedom

the first thing i will do is fight for my lisence

xD

i hope i will pass it once

good luck to myself

quite dissapointed

cause our pangkor island trip had been cancel

lot of problems we faced

so we decided to cancel it

and now we planing to go....genting

i know is not really special

cause we use to be always go genting

but think bout the positive way

just enjoy the time with my buddies

is doesn't matter where is the place

and i hope don't change anymore

:)

many people use to ask me
what course do i want to take after i get my result

actually i got no any idea now

quite confuse bout that

mummy asking me to take marketing course

teacher asking me to take casino management

confuse!

i got no idea at all

someone please help me

i hope i will not choose wrong course

so that i will not waste my time

 it's been quite long time i never upload my photo

latest me with the freaking tired face

><

all i need to do now is add oil for my coming soon spm

wish me good luck

gambateh

i know i can do it

:)



i done the brave thing

so i'm not afraid of anything anymore

challenge,come for me

i'm ready for that

:)

november 16---最后一天

我很喜欢学校早晨的情景

♥有像皇宫♥

今天确确实实是最后一天去学校了

很不舍很不舍

今天大家都玩得很开心

我很喜欢听到大家一起聚集的笑声

我会很怀念的

拍了很多照片做纪念

我们永远都不会忘记的回忆



今天带着坦然面对的心情去学校

觉得很失落也有点沮丧

毕竟我还没完全接受事实

对于知道我发生什么事的人

谢谢你们的关心

我会没事的

原本沮丧的心情

随着看到陆陆续续到来的她们

心情就慢慢变好了

我希望我会真的没事

=)

老实说真的应该要谢谢一个人

虽然我们没见过面

也没真正常常聊天

可是他的信息总是很幽默

会让我捧腹大笑

谢谢你

恶魔

=)

离开学校的那一霎那

我告诉自己

我长大了

我会比以前更努力

我会比以前更好

很想念姐妹们的拥抱

这一切都见证着我们的友情♥

我爱你们

=)

 你们要比任何人来的幸福

我会祝福你们

加油

november 15---我很勇敢

♥我们这一班♥

今天是毕业典礼

也象征着我们必须离开学校了

对,就如嘉铭说的

我们带着沉重的心情到学校

有些感觉

看着对方却说不出口

看着学校的情景

从漆黑到天亮

从冷清到热闹

我以后会很欢怀念很怀念这一切

曾经常常埋怨学校的不好学校的不是

想想就是这间学校带我成长了五年

那充满了酸甜苦辣的五年

学校的篮球场

学校的食堂

学校的厕所

学校的礼堂

学校的教室

学校的办公室

每一个角落都是我的回忆

就是这间学校

把曾经懵懵懂懂的我

五年的时间变成熟了

我会想念这一切

毕业仪式开始

原定告诉自己不哭的我

终究在她们的泪水影响之下

流泪了

满满不舍的泪水

满满开心的泪水

满满欣慰的泪水

嘉铭拥抱了我

很窝心

我最忘不了

我和她们三人的回忆

丁丁,琪琪,阿铭

她们给了我很多很多

可能我一辈子都在外得不到的东西

我会好好留着我们的一切

不会忘记你们

不会忘记一起疯狂笑过的一切

明天就是我们真正最后一天念书了

会在每个角落

好好回忆

为我们的未来加油前进

=)

今天是郑忆雯十七年来最勇敢的一天

不是谎言而是真实的

我从来没有想过我竟会如此勇敢

做了一件我曾经认为不可能会做的事

虽然结局不是我想要的

但我之前已经做到心理准备了

所以还是坦然地面对了

心理的确很不好过

也有想哭的感觉

毕竟是生平中第一次说出口

也是生平中第一次被别人说NO

所以伤心难免

但是我会永远记得今天

我真的很勇敢

=)

我想我的中学生涯没有什么好遗憾了

大考还有六天就到了

紧张加上不安

没什么时间可以准备了

但只好面对

我会尽力做到最后

祝福我吧

最近我爱上了mocha

常常都在喝

就像上了瘾

戒不掉

他们占了我生命很重要的一部分

最真实的我

不顾形象的我

丑女一名

=)

november 12---我们的疯狂 PART II

今天的我们

很疯狂

违抗老师的命令

硬闯回自己的班

没有钥匙

就用爬窗的

有什么难得到我们

=）

今天的早餐

二十几份麦当劳早餐

汉堡包+咖啡/茶

一起的早餐

幸福添加温馨

我喜欢

打打闹闹

顶顶撞撞

习惯性的动作

依旧呈现

扑克牌游戏真的很疯狂

输家必须接受惩罚

1-饼干+辣椒酱+葡萄果酱+胡椒粉+盐巴

2-咖啡+茶+糖果+胡椒粉+盐巴+咖啡奶粉

3-脱裤子！！！

xD

刺激加上疯狂

大家的欢呼声和笑声

弥漫了整间教室

一起的微笑永远都忘不了

情侣们的幸福感染了我很深很深

即开心也觉得羡慕

看着好友的幸福

自己也觉得很开心

有种很欣慰的感觉

祝你们幸福 一直一直

拍照拍照

哈拉哈拉

嬉笑打闹

我们回到了最初的我们

放下了形象

放下了自尊

玩闹了起来

记得这种感觉必须永远保留

虽然被罚喝了三杯恶心的参杂物

有想呕的感觉

但是我觉得今天真的很开心

面对各自回家的情景

忍住了眼泪

我不哭

我们都微笑说再见

我在想

未来的某一天

当我和我的孩子聊起中学回忆

我知道

我会加倍想念你们

不管以后我们依然联系或否

我们都会记得曾经一起疯狂的回忆

一起努力过的

一起经历过的

一直一直会存在着

记得要联络

=）

你们永远是我最棒的朋友

♥ ♥ ♥

to be continue 



星期一的毕业典礼

不会刻意强忍泪水

我爱你们