it's been long time i never update my blog
out of time
can i have more time?
recently keep busy studying
finally spm still got 4 subjects only
hope it will over soon
i'm freaking tired
at first i thought it will be very best after finish spm
but when it finally going to over soon
i feel like don't want spm stop so fast
i don't know what the feeling of form 5 students
but recently im really headache
bout my future
not because my result bad
i got confident on my result
but i don't know how to explain the feeling
many things to worry
and dad n mum keep talk to me bout my future study
im confuse to be 18
can i back to childhood?
i miss it
after spm then christmas coming
2010 christmas will celebrate with buddies at genting
3 days two nights
i thought i will very happy bout that
but i don't
maybe is because a lot of stuff i haven settle
i still remember that my 2009 christmas wish
i wish to have a bf this year christmas
opps end ups i don't have bf to acc me this christmas
but all my girl friends do have their bf acc them this christmas
how jealous am i
LOL
what to do
i have to accept the fact that no people want me
im single on 2010 chirstmas
wooohoooo i have to proud of that
i think im crazy
whatever
after the chritsmas n graduated trip
im going to interview job with my dear ceci
when i told my friends n cousin im going to interview
they was like "von,are you okay?you sure you need to work?"
i don't understand why they will think like that
im also a ordinary girl
im not special at all
i also need a part time job
but honestly im freaking worry n nervous
it's my first time work
i just keep told myself
i can do it i can do it
that's what i can do for myself
after discuss with dad n mum
they allowed me to interview
finally i get their permission
i know it will be a very big challenge for me
but please trust me
i can do it n i will prove it to all of them
which college is better
im freaking headache bout this
and i don't know which course really do suitable me
what the hack
im gonna cry
the reason i wanna work
i want to save money
for my laptop
for my license fees
n some of my college fees
they ask me isn't your dad will settle all that for you
i mean are you crazy?
im already 18 next year
im not a small child anymore
i have the responsibility to pay all that
you think your dad pay everything for you should be proud?
hello shame on you
how old are you now
of course my dad don't let me work at the first time
but after i explain all that
he understand me well n let me go have a try
he just say
"girl,actually you no need to work,daddy already plan all for you.
but if you wanna have a try,i will let you go"
thanks to my dad
i love him
he always make me feel warm
for my laptop n money
i will fight for it
i will do my best
sometimes i ask myself
why the world so unfair
i sacrifice so much
but i didn't get anything
i know is not good to think like that
but im really tired to be a good girl
i just need someone who really do understand me well
n just give me some courage when im freaking down
that's all
LMAO
but im lucky to have a great dad n mum
they do understand me well
im the lucky one
thanks to my parents
im not that pretty
i know
im not that sweet
i know
im not that lucky
i know
but what i really know is
i got everything i want
that's enough
i don't have a rich family
i don't have a big banglo
i don't have a pretty face
i don't have expensive stuff
but
i have a warm family
i have a small warm house
i have a fat cute face
i have all stuff that i want
n im here to say
i will not repeat anymore
im not going to move my house so soon
but i will move after this
but not sure when
don't ask me why
cause of some problem
so need to postpone
:)
