111210 童话里的王子公主

我即喜欢气球  也害怕气球

矛盾的心情

不能轻易爱上一个人

也不能轻易放弃一个人

不是吗?

我称不上对感情执著

对于现在的我

感情根本不算什么

有或无相差并没很大

或许少了它我会更努力拼搏未来

妈说我就像是

开花店或是婚纱店的老板娘

听妈这么一说

我就明白什么意思了

我爱帮别人策划惊喜策划浪漫

我最擅长也是我最爱

而我的惊喜我的浪漫从未出现

开花店的老板娘
 男友从来不会送自己鲜花

开婚纱店的老板娘

习惯性看着别人幸福的模样

麻木了

我享受看着别人的幸福

我享受策划别人的浪漫

就是享受

我的他不需要特别会给我惊喜

我的他不需要特别会给我浪漫

因为这一切我都会给他

人常说期望越大失望越大

所以我从来不期望什么

知足常乐

我常那么告诉自己

这世界上

存在多少的童话故事

这世界上

存在多少的王子公主

这世界上

存在多少的偶像戏剧

别傻了

踏实追求幸福总比幻想来得实际

别人的童话别人的王子别人的戏剧

是在于别人从前修来的福

想要非一般的幸福

现在好好修福吧

没有一样东西是不劳而获的

未来的我

会一直记得

曾经在我生命里

走过的路人甲

因为他们

我成长了

因为他们

我开始懂得了什么是爱

爱是就算付出也不在乎回报
而对方也一样
:)

december 6---challenges

it's been long time i never update my blog

out of time

can i have more time?

 recently keep busy studying 

finally spm still got 4 subjects only

hope it will over soon

i'm freaking tired

at first i thought it will be very best after finish spm

but when it finally going to over soon

i feel like don't want spm stop so fast

i don't know what the feeling of form 5 students

but recently im really headache

bout my future

not because my result bad

i got confident on my result

but i don't know how to explain the feeling

many things to worry

and dad n mum keep talk to me bout my future study

im confuse to be 18

can i back to childhood?

i miss it

after spm then christmas coming

2010 christmas will celebrate with buddies at genting

3 days two nights

i thought i will very happy bout that

but i don't

maybe is because a lot of stuff i haven settle

i still remember that my 2009 christmas wish 

i wish to have a bf this year christmas

opps end ups i don't have bf to acc me this christmas

but all my girl friends do have their bf acc them this christmas

how jealous am i

LOL

what to do

i have to accept the fact that no people want me

im single on 2010 chirstmas

wooohoooo i have to proud of that

i think im crazy

whatever

after the chritsmas n graduated trip

im going to interview job with my dear ceci

when i told my friends n cousin im going to interview

they was like "von,are you okay?you sure you need to work?"

i don't understand why they will think like that

im also a ordinary girl 

im not special at all

i also need a part time job

but honestly im freaking worry n nervous

it's my first time work

i just keep told myself

i can do it i can do it

that's what i can do for myself

after discuss with dad n mum

they allowed me to interview

finally i get their permission

i know it will be a very big challenge for me

but please trust me

i can do it n i will prove it to all of them

which college is better

im freaking headache bout this

and i don't know which course really do suitable me

what the hack

im gonna cry

the reason i wanna work

i want to save money

for my laptop

for my license fees

n some of my college fees

they ask me isn't your dad will settle all that for you

i mean are you crazy?

im already 18 next year

im not a small child anymore

i have the responsibility to pay all that

you think your dad pay everything for you should be proud?

hello shame on you

how old are you now

of course my dad don't let me work at the first time

but after i explain all that

he understand me well n let me go have a try

he just say

"girl,actually you no need to work,daddy already plan all for you.

but if you wanna have a try,i will let you go"

thanks to my dad

i love him

he always make me feel warm

for my laptop n money

i will fight for it

i will do my best

sometimes i ask myself

why the world so unfair

i sacrifice so much

but i didn't get anything

i know is not good to think like that

but im really tired to be a good girl

i just need someone who really do understand me well

n just give me some courage when im freaking down

that's all

LMAO

but im lucky to have a great dad n mum

they do understand me well

im the lucky one

thanks to my parents

im not that pretty

i know

im not that sweet

i know

im not that lucky

i know

but what i really know is

i got everything i want

that's enough

i don't have a rich family 

i don't have a big banglo

i don't have a pretty face

i don't have expensive stuff

but

i have a warm family

i have a small warm house

i have a fat cute face

i have all stuff that i want

n im here to say

i will not repeat anymore

im not going to move my house so soon

but i will move after this

but not sure when

don't ask me why

cause of some problem

so need to postpone 

:)

november 30---固执

最近的我

真的很不错

至少生活有起有落

这样才是生活吧

考试进行了一星期多

的确很疲惫

但是为了尽力考好最后一次的考试

我拚了老命也要考好

老实说我希望

大考赶快结束

因为真的有点累了

还是那一句

真的很羡慕也很欣慰

看到他们那么幸福

我也很替他们感到开心

顺便可沾一沾喜气

:)

家暴夫妻真的很幸福

才开始没多久

却感情就像老夫老妻了

本以为男的会欺负女的

谁知道出乎大家的意料

竟是女的欺负男的

打打闹闹

亲亲我我

真的很幸福

:)

羊先生和羊小姐

一点都不输家暴夫妻

同样沉醉在甜蜜的爱河里

男的傻乎乎却体贴

女的凶巴巴却体贴

很登对很幸福

:)

看见猪先生对米奇那么好

也觉得很欣慰

不管他们最后是否是不是有情人终情眷属

也一样祝福他们

米奇真的很幸福

猪先生比一般男生来得更体贴更温柔

:)

我希望时间永远停在这一刻

让幸福永远存在

没什么觉得遗憾

至少我努力过了

也争取过了

虽然没办法比他们幸福

我不介意

或许我的他还没出现吧

一切顺其自然

宝贝说不要为了一棵树放弃整座森林

时曾相识的一句话

我明白我明白

但是这棵树很特别

它让我有了一只以来都没有的勇气

或许的确真的有点难忘

是谁先说不要尴尬

却又是谁自己尴尬了起来

我很没用

我知道

:)

爱上宇珩的新歌

朋友们都结婚去了

歌词很贴切

把朋友们都结婚改去恋爱去了

朋友们都恋爱去了

就完完全全符合我了

有时我也会不服气 
总是差一点点运气
曾经小心 呵护的爱情
最後还是变成了叹息
为了幸福认真努力 
付出一百分的自己 就算是爱对我 多不公平
受伤了也会痊愈
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我还打算 把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及 遗憾的是 我不在 你的心里

有时会安慰我自己 
单身也是一种福气
去旅行 看电影 天晴下雨
再高兴也只有我自己
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我还打算 把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及 遗憾的是
我不在 你的心里
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我还打算 把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及 遗憾的是
我不在 你的心里
还等甚麽 朋友们都结婚去了
和最爱的人 共度一生
我相信着 爱给我们的伤痕
不会平白痛的 再多转折
对的人 会出现的

对我常常会安慰自己

或许单身是一种福气

有他们在我身边

我就已经很幸福了

他们在我生命里占据了很大的部分

我的幸福会到来的

:)


最近的生活照
除了温习还是温习
手不离资料

我是乖孩子

有时候真的读到差点昏了
我希望战争赶快结束
我是时候回乡休养了

ignore my ugly tired face

我希望我能抽离胃痛的病魔

虽然已经好转了许多

但是我要的是完全康复

我答应会好好照顾自己

不会再生病了

我要和药说再见

有时候原谅我隐瞒着痛

只是不想别人替我这个没用的家伙担心

我家的大男人老爸

从来不擅长把感受说出来

我爱你三个字

手指能算得出他说过多少遍

虽不擅长表达

但我却擅长感受

他对我的关怀对我的爱

我通通收到

你的来电

的确很惊喜

让我回想起了很多我和你一路以来的回忆

你是最棒的爹地

没有人取代你

我只想说

爹地妈咪

要是有机会

我下辈子还要当你们的孩子

好好再孝顺你们一遍

我爱你们

故作坚强不是我的本事

我根本没有这种本事

坚强本来就是我与身居来的吧

能说是不想依赖别人

我的肩膀能给我珍惜的人

但我却不是很需要别人的肩膀

我就是那么的固执

或许也能说是因为脆弱久了

失去想寻找肩膀的斗志了

我觉得现在这样很好

坚强的我很棒

不开心哭一霎那就够了

生气大喊一霎那就够了

开心大笑一霎那就够了

简单的生活

简单的速调

比较有踏实感

原谅我的固执

因为我就是这样的女生

我在尝试找回最初的自己
我想我已经忘了

november 25---grateful

finally n finally

i finished bahasa melayu,english n history paper

sigh with relief

honestly i really felt tired

every midnight study

every early morning wake up

until i'm gonna sick

:(

but i know this feeling is just temporaily

if i can get good result in spm

why not

i feel worth for it

as i promise

i will do my best to get what i want

i won't make anyone dissapointed

still got 7 subjects to go

evon tee

fight for it

:)

every morning i wake up at this time to study

what you doing at this time

i think you all might be still in bed dreaming bout someone

LOL

i feel very down this few days

but i don't what the reason that make me down

maybe bout stress or maybe not

my friend always say the reason that i feel down

is because of him

i don't know true or not

but i think that is not important anymore

we're still friend 

without any change

:)

i always smile and laugh crazily

but do anyone know the truth behind the smile

i don't think so

maybe my acting skills is perfect

LOL

but for me

i think is better to give people happiness

than make people down or worry

i'm leo's girl

strong and tough girl

i know i can be like that

i need some time

feel warm and happy

see-ing 2 pairs of them

playing arround

how cute are them

:)

everytime i see them

i feel very happy

maybe i'm crazy

but maybe you don't know that feeling

the best feeling i ever have

see-ing your besties happy

the real and true feeling

i feel it

some of them ask me

when i found mine

the answer i wanna give

i don't know

haha

just let it be

i know he will appear one day

who's the one who hold my hand til the end?

i'm wondering

:)

i really grateful for everything

especially for all people who always by my side

thanks a lot

thanks to my besties

♥violet,qii and jane♥

cause of them

my secondary school life full of unforgetable memory

i will damn miss them after we leave school

you all are always my best jimui ever

thanks for by my side when i need you all

and also thanks to the superman kin

he's the one who accompany me when i'm freaking down

he give me lot of power

appreciate his support

don't worry superman

supergirl will always chrage full battery

i will be happy always

:)

and to my dear baby cecilia

she's always important to me

although we not always contact

but i know you still are the best baby for me♥

thanks for the supporting

i will always remember you

:)

lastly thanks to

my dear sister rachel and mean

my best brother kenneth

my cute girl kikobee and cm

devil benny,cha siew,papa,sai lou,baby
yang,roy,ccw,sen and many more

thanks a lot to you all♥

less contact

but i will remember you all

sorry if i never post your photo

and sorry to others that i didn't mention your name

anyway i will remember all of you

i love you all

:)

be myself

and do my best

i'm the supergirl

evon tee

november 19---jealous

i love this picha so much

without any reason

show my small eyes,big nose and big mouth

almost 'perfect'

LOL

i miss this hairstyle damn a lot

since i already cut and rebonding my fringe this wednesday

aiks

i promise to wait it long again and i will never cut it again

say bye bye to my doll fringe

:)

yesterday night after i finish my revision,blogger and tv section

i went to bed at 12 i think

but i can't really fall asleep

spm is coming soon

feel nervous and worry

skip

chit chat with that devil through sms

like to chat with him quite much

cause i can always zat him and bully him

LOL

sometimes when i feel down

he could really help me to stand up again

by doing nothing

between he never know that i'm down at all

we just always chat fei hua

anyway thanks a lot

he's a nice guy
girls can consider him
LOL

today i wake up quite early

jogging myself at the small garden behind my house

after that breakfast with mum

and for sure the next thing is revision again

keep study and understand all those komsas things

so that i can do well for my bm paper

no matter how i also have to get credit for my bm paper

if not i will kill myself

study until i feel sleepy dy so i decided to stop a while

and continue update my blog

whole table full of my paper

hope i will remember everything i study

daddy going sepang for 3 days

miss him a lot

hope can see him soon

before he went out

he hug me and told me to add oil and take care

feel touched and i almost cry

i love my daddy n mummy

they use to be be with me when i need them

i will do my best

so that won't dissapointed them

god bless me

i give my mum this

and she really go buy when i'm doing revision

thanks mummy

i love you

my favourite macha

:)

but i most like starbucks

mocha frappucinno+chocalate chips

i miss it a lot

who willing to acc me go after my spm?

recently coffee use to be my best buddy

it could help me to study in the midnight

the last thing

add oil all my dear freinds

i know we can do it

fight til the end

watching all my friends starting their relationship

feel happy for them

they're so sweet

making breakfast for each other

see-ing each other when they free

walking and hold hands together

caring each other

i'm wondering

when my prince will appear

tomorrow?one month?one year?five years or ten years?

i hope he will appear soon

 please don't hurt them

they're angel

they belong to happiness

best wishes for you all

:)

spm countdown

3 days

november 18---study hard

kind of crazy this few days

keep study and study

non stop

feel like i'm really hardworking

LOL

5 more days to SPM

quite nervous and tired

mummy keep tell me to do my best

so that i won't regret after this

i understand that

so i keep study without wasting any time

i know what i can do now is just to try my do best for more revision
i hope it will really help me to get good result in spm

actually i didn't think much of that

my friends use to be ask me how many A do you wanna get

i just answer them

i just need enough result to get in my ideal college

is doesn't matter i got A anot

but of course if can get A sure more better 

spm for two weeks then i will like out from jail

i got my full freedom

the first thing i will do is fight for my lisence

xD

i hope i will pass it once

good luck to myself

quite dissapointed

cause our pangkor island trip had been cancel

lot of problems we faced

so we decided to cancel it

and now we planing to go....genting

i know is not really special

cause we use to be always go genting

but think bout the positive way

just enjoy the time with my buddies

is doesn't matter where is the place

and i hope don't change anymore

:)

many people use to ask me
what course do i want to take after i get my result

actually i got no any idea now

quite confuse bout that

mummy asking me to take marketing course

teacher asking me to take casino management

confuse!

i got no idea at all

someone please help me

i hope i will not choose wrong course

so that i will not waste my time

 it's been quite long time i never upload my photo

latest me with the freaking tired face

><

all i need to do now is add oil for my coming soon spm

wish me good luck

gambateh

i know i can do it

:)



i done the brave thing

so i'm not afraid of anything anymore

challenge,come for me

i'm ready for that

:)

november 16---最后一天

我很喜欢学校早晨的情景

♥有像皇宫♥

今天确确实实是最后一天去学校了

很不舍很不舍

今天大家都玩得很开心

我很喜欢听到大家一起聚集的笑声

我会很怀念的

拍了很多照片做纪念

我们永远都不会忘记的回忆



今天带着坦然面对的心情去学校

觉得很失落也有点沮丧

毕竟我还没完全接受事实

对于知道我发生什么事的人

谢谢你们的关心

我会没事的

原本沮丧的心情

随着看到陆陆续续到来的她们

心情就慢慢变好了

我希望我会真的没事

=)

老实说真的应该要谢谢一个人

虽然我们没见过面

也没真正常常聊天

可是他的信息总是很幽默

会让我捧腹大笑

谢谢你

恶魔

=)

离开学校的那一霎那

我告诉自己

我长大了

我会比以前更努力

我会比以前更好

很想念姐妹们的拥抱

这一切都见证着我们的友情♥

我爱你们

=)

 你们要比任何人来的幸福

我会祝福你们

加油