times

the sixth day after accident

feel like i'm still dreaming

but i knew it very much

it's not a dream

wound getting better

my left hand can move more than before

the wound beside my eye getting smaller

and the wound at the back better

i think

the best good news

our charlene going to change back normal wad tomorrow

miss her so much

miss the time spending with her

hope she recover soon

god bless her

i'm glad that my baby boy and giam are getting better

the most lucky thing in the entire world

they all are safe and fine

****

honestly

i was damn afraid at the time

when the car turned up side down

i was still blur inside

when i felt the pain

i thought this is the end of my life

and i'm afraid that i can't meet my parents and baby anymore

the most horror feeling i ever felt

scary than the pain of my wound 

when the time i opened my eyes

i saw my baby boy in front of me

i was like

thanks god

thanks that my boy was alright

and thanks god that i'm still alive

i can't imagine i lost any one of them

and i'm glad that i still have them

feel like telling daddy, mummy and baby

that i love them so damn much

i really do love them very much

and please don't ever leave me without my permission

every night when i'm going to cry because of the pain

think bout charlene, think bout my boy

i was going to get through all these thing

just a little pain

so what

life still go on

i will fight for it

thanks for the caring

thanks for the wishes

evon will be back very soon

<3