miss

first of all

i was kinda emo these few days

this photo taken from my hometown

kuala selangor

nice?

it's tuesday

and due to we were free

so me and daddy mummy decided to back hometown

used new high way only costs us 35 minutes then reached dy

meet my grandma and we bought kfc for her

at last all of us ate together

i love this picha very much

not capture by today

this was the last time we went back hometown

daddy n mummy held each other hands and climb up

i remember that time my baby boy was with us

kinda miss my baby boy

i just hope i can meet him soooon

but i still don't know when i can meet him

:(

****

this picha was capture on 26th this month

and it was 1:30am in the morning

me and my boy felt kinda hungry

so he decided to cook for me

how sweet

:)

although it was only maggie mee

but i felt so warm when he cooked and fed me to eat

<3

i really did miss him every single second

but when i get to know he was very enjoy his family trip

i felt quite happy too

love the way he called me

hope i can see him soon

;)

normal update

oh yeah

it's sunday

and today baby boy went langkawi family trip

wish him enjoy his trip

and of course

i miss him so much

;)

****

talk about the day i backed hostel

the second day i at KL

me and baby boy went 1U 

teehee

we went for movie

taaadaa

the fortune buddies

damn funny man

xD

before the movie

we went to his favorite restaurant 

nando's

had our dinner and went for window shopping

planing to but a lot of shirts

but end up all the stupid atm can't take money

wondering what happened to cimb bank

all customers can't take money on that day

so end up we just window shopping

but we still planing to go once again

after sem break

;)

****

when we at nando's

my cute boy 

this few days 

we did chat a lot

and i love the moment when he kinda serious to listen about me

love him so much

<3

imma back

KL

i am back

<3

glad that i am back to KL

thanks to my aunt and my cousins

thanks for accompany me and caring

will miss you all

hehehe

alright i am now at hostel

teehee

why?

i am back for my baby boy

yaya

he is playing game right now and beside me

;)

had our dinner

mc-donald

gosh love it

long long time never eat fast food

and the most important thing is half month i didn't drink cold drink

and today yeah yeah i drink whole coca-cola

hahahahaha

****

baby boy gonna go for family trip this coming sunday

hope he will enjoy his trip

and all the most important is safety

;)

and 3rd of september will attend my bro wedding dinner

teehee

wish him and his wife happy ever after

<3

god please stay the moment right now

i just love to be happy

it's okay to be simple

i just wanna smile

:)

ps*

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

finally i meet my baby boy

<3<3<3

and i miss mummy and daddy too

muackssssss

shopping day

well

today not that boring

after breakfast 

cousin sister decided to put down us at ipoh parade

so that we can have some shopping

and she will go for her exam

didn't buy much thing

i only bought a pair of heel

teehee

;)

love it so damn much

bought it from voir

only cost me 80 bucks

not expensive but pretty nice

next time i wanna buy another colour

mummy wanna buy jeans skirt and some shirts

but i refuse to let her buy

cause why?

ngek ngek

i got my own reason

so after shopping

me, mummy and aunty went for dessert

as usual i ordered my ai yu bing

niceeeeeeeeeee

<3

****

after shopping

i decided to go railway station to buy ticket

i will be going back KL tomorrow

woohoo

i am so so so excited

finally i can meet my baby boy

<3

miss him so so so much

:)

****

and finally extra post!
yesterday night first time i chat with so many people through skype
teehee

me, my boy, cabage, charlene, henry and alex

enjoy the moment very well
although got bit noisy
hehehehe

miss charlene so much
hope she will come back soon
:)

same tuesday

oh come on

my lovely time

please pass faster

so that i can meet my boy soon

:(

****

alright it's tuesday

and all i do today is

wake up > brush teeth > bath > breakfast > online > pps > tea time > online once again

gosh

i am so so so so bored

but what to do

hope my cousin sister's exam end soon

so that i can have some outings

mummy keep nagging me

say i keep playing my lappiee

:(

mummy

without my lappiee

i think i will just sit there and be a wood

so which do you prefer?

LOL

****

nothing much to say

continue pps

*

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between quite disappointed

daddy plan not to come ipoh le

if baby boy got come then daddy plan to come and fetch us back KL

cause mummy n daddy don't want baby boy go back by bus

never mind

i hope daddy will change his mind

cause i also don't want to go back by bus

teehee

;)

bored

firstly wanna say good luck to my baby boy

he is going to sit for his last paper of final exam tomorrow

wish him all the best

<3

and all i wanna say is

i will always support him

****

it's monday morning

bored morning

due to my cousin sister sat for her first paper for final exam this morning

so the whole day i just stay at home

kinda boring and seriously i miss my boy very much

the whole day keep online, watching pps, waiting text from my boy

and eat

nothing much i can do anymore

:(

god please save me

*

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*

*

*

*

*

*

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dying

miss my baby boy

miss my college life

miss my home

miss my hostel

miss my daddy

miss my friends

....

lack model talent

it's the first sunday for my sem break

imma at ipoh right now

today evening went eco park with my cousin sister

she want me to be her photo shooting 'model'

LOL

i was like hmmmmm...

i don't know about any posing

and finally i only make her gek hei

she say i look like wood

ahahahahaha

yup totally admit i don't have any model talent

i just like to be who am i

:)

love the environment there very much

i hope my boy is there with me

i will bring him for a evening walk

and take some photo with him

<3

gosh

when my cousin ask me to think about my boy when taking photo

i was like so serious

really do imagine he is beside me

ahahahahahaha

my elephant legs 

==

after photo shooting

we went to euro house to have our dinner

steak and juice

<3

****

just now skype with my baby boy

finally i can see him

woohoo

so excited

he still so charming and cute

hehehehehehe

hope to see him soooon

tomorrow my cousin sister will sit for her final exam

so evon tee will stay at home again

:)

at last one more photo

i love the small small white flower

ps* i didn't make up today

and i was still in sleeping mode that time

so ignore my ugly photo

teehee

;)

extra extra

almost forget i learned to make sushi this afternoon
ta da~

the result
<3

next time make for my baby boy
teehee

same

once again

i post my old photo

hmmmmm

i just miss my long hair so damn much

wondering when my hair will grow this long again?

hate my recent hairstyle

:(

****

oh yeah

i am now at ipoh

quite happy to meet my cousins

but quite boring too

imma using my lappiee online in the room alone

ishhhhhh

i miss him very much

yesterday night text him 

i thought he will call me

but end up he say he is busy no time to call me

that alright for me actually

but after few minutes

i receive his call

teehee

he is giving me a surprise

how cute he is

feel like huging him

<3

wondering what he doing now

ignore the stupid finger

this is my baby boy once again

^^

****

kind of worry actually

i thought i am alright to sit in car

but yesterday night on the way to ipoh

i was quite afraid when i sit alone at the back seat

maybe i think too much

but i hope that phobia will gone soon

everyone asking me bout my scar

hmmmmm

not that serious compare to last 2 weeks

but the scar still here with me

i am waiting they gone 

so that i can wear my bikini and dress again

;)

****

she's cute...

right?

xD

holidays start

woohooo

holidays mood ON

finally and finally

it's my sem break start

this morning was the last exam i sat

malaysian study

not that tough that i imagine

although i didn't study but at least i still can did some of the questions

i am the first student that leave the hall

LOL

should i feel proud of it?

xD

****

half of my holidays time will spend at ipoh

going ipoh tomorrow night

IPOH IMMA COMING

long time did not meet aunty and all my cousins

miss them so much

thanks to them

when i caught accident

they keep sms and call for concern

:)

due to my cousin sis will having final exam next week

so my holidays at ipoh will kinda boring

but it's okay

at least my lappiee is still here with me

kind of disappointed 

i thought baby boy will come along ipoh to find me

so i plan to bring him go somewhere 

but at last he can't

but never mind

i can't be so so so selfish actually

my baby boy quite long did not go home dy

so this time should let him stay more long at home to accompany the family

next time i only bring him go ipoh once again

;)

of course everyone also know that

i will damn miss him

hmmmmm

two weeks we can't meet

quite sad actually

but what to do

arhgggggggggggggggg

baby

i miss you so much

:(

but we do promise each other

we will be very good boy and girl

teehee

promise him every night call him

but can't wait to call him every hour

LOL

i am crazy

my cute baby

<3

hope he enjoy his langkawi family trip

and hope i will have a nice holidays

:)

and well

happy holidays to all my friends

will miss all of you

;)

no one will know how much i miss him

hope to meet him soooooon

<3

singing day

it's wednesday morning

and oh yeah

today is selangor public holiday

guess it didn't give me any effect

holidays mood on

woohoo

after tomorrow last stupid exam malaysian study

then it's my sem break

finally i have some time to rest

:)

****

this morning me, baby boy, henry and li quan went sing k

and guess what

i love loudspeaker very damn much

cheap and nice environment

include lunch and 3 hours sing k only cost us rm13.90

normal day only rm8

teehee

of course we do sing a lot

and we enjoy our time very much

:)

****

sem break will until 5th of september

and i will damn miss my baby very very much

but what to do

i have to go ipoh and he have to back for his family trip

i hope i can see him soooon

gonna back home tomorrow afternoon

hope he will miss me like i do

muacksss

角色

每个人一生人当中都应该有一个角色

或许会有更多的角色

面对不同的人就会有不同的角色

这不是虚假

只是当别人如何对你的时候

角色就是自然的出现

对于我的真心朋友

我的角色从来就不会虚假

认为我虚假的人

抱歉 你并不是我的真心朋友

我称不上伟大

也称不上有很大的能力

但是只要是朋友开口的要求

我都会尽我的能力去帮忙

对于我的父母

我当然也有做女儿的角色

必须很孝顺他们

必须很疼爱他们

必须不让他们失望

必须不让他们伤心

必须不让他们伤心

一直的一直

我都很努力去做好我的角色

宝贝说过

最令人讨厌的人就是

虚伪 做作 造假

三样犯齐

恭喜你

你真的很令人讨厌

不要怪别人对你虚伪做作造假

只需要问自己到底有没有虚伪做作造假

****

之前我都一直紧握着两个角色

做朋友的角色

做女儿的角色

直到我遇到了他

我的生命中有多了一个角色

从来没有一个男生像他一样

让我能够那么爱他

让我能够那么为他

让我能够那么想他

有了他

我有多了一个做女友的角色

一直的一直

我都在很努力去做好这个角色

但是直到最近

我发现其实我一点都没做好我的角色

我是一个很失败的女友

家务做不好的女友

烹饪做不好的女友

常惹他生气的女友

很不成熟的女友

太过依赖的女友

太邋遢的女友

太不好的女友

我才发现其实自己并没有做到自己的角色

有时候真的觉得很抱歉

却不知道怎样告诉他

对不起宝贝

我真的很没用

他一直得包容

他一直得教导

他一直得体谅

我一一都放在心里

谢谢你

谢谢你给我的一切

谢谢你的包容教导和体谅

不管怎样

我还是会努力做到最好

因为真的很爱你

原谅我有时突然心情低落

只是因为觉得自己真的很没用

不是不告诉你发生什么事

而是觉得自己应该身体力行才是最好

谢谢你

我爱你

love

the recent me

one of the sho po's photo

(;

oh yeah

due to my exam

i never went home for two weeks

miss daddy n mummy so damn much

saturday afternoon daddy n mummy come find me for lunch

<3

so me and baby boy went lunch with daddy n mummy

and finally took 1 more family picture

i always love to take picture with daddy and mummy

****

it's been another horrible week for me

later is accounting exam

and seriously i don't know how to face it

i got no idea how to do all those stupid account

between

all i wanna say is

I HATE ACCOUNTING SO DAMN MUCH

:(

when i face accounting
my table will not be tidy anymore
:(

i just wish this exam war will end sooooooooooon
and pray hard not to fail any course
i don't feel like resit or whatever
please

****

and guess what
it's me and my baby boy once again
;)

just to show some photo take we took that day
love him much much
hehehehe

he's damn cute
when i take photo with him
he told me that take from mirror will look more nice
i was like...stun
how a boy know this?
ahahahahahah
cute dao~

he is the best for me
although sometimes we will argue a bit
but it make us more close

thanks to him
<3

2nd of next month is our 4th month anniversary
maybe i can't be able to accompany him
but no matter how
i just wanna tell him
i love him so much
teehee

****

when i feel disappointed or sad
i will think about my parents and my baby boy
because of them
i will put a smile on myself

they are my power
<3

stress

it's been a tough week for me

try very hard to hide my feeling

but at last still can't hide my tears

due to my form 4 and 5 never take add math

so quantitative method is quite tough for me

lots of formula have to memorize

lots of exercise have to do

\today is quantitative method exam

i cried yesterday night 

cried 99

i was freaking stress

as i know i just don't want to fail any subject

i just don't want to let my parents feel disappointed 

i just don't want myself to be so useless

3 days keep on sleep at 1 something

and wake up at 5 something

so that i can have more time to study and revision

freaking tired

except cry i got no more choice to split out my feeling

sorry

i just can't hide my tears anymore

thanks to my baby, nicole, henry and jewel

they did teach me a lot

and i'm glad that today final exam at least i know how to do almost all questions

i hope i won't fail any subject

and next monday is accounting exam

i hope i can handle it well

no more tears no more give up

i will try my best for it

god bless me

:(

that day went shopping with baby boy and the gang

enjoy the day very much

;)

  

and at last this photo

we bought it together

and we throw it at the same day

he decided to capture it before we throw

teehee

don't ask why we wanna throw

<3

the very first college exam

hmmmmm

yes, this is an old photo

what to do

long time never take nice photo

how am i going to take photo with this 'pretty' look

****

having the first exam today

General Language Learning

not that nervous that i expect

having exam at multipurpose hall

the first time exam with air-cond

LOL

use up 1 hour finish my paper and leave the hall

they say i leave too fast

not because i know to do well

is just because i don't wanna keep on looking at the paper

make me more confuse only

so i choose to finish up and leave immediately 

this coming thursday and friday exam again

i think i will fail

i'm not joking

i didn't know how am i going to face qm and accounting exam

ishhhhhhhhhhhh

i just don't want make dad n mum disapointed

i just don't want my ptptn have any trouble

god bless me please

i will try my very best to do well

so please

give me one chance

****

it's 1:13 in the morning

i can't sleep

but i don't know why

i just hope everything can be more simple

isn't it so hard?

damn you

seriously

i miss my long hair very much

seriously

i miss wearing sexy dresses

AND WHAT THE FUCK

I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW

why i need to have a big damn ugly scar at my back

why i need to have a scar on my face

and why i need to drop so much of hair

and why even i have to cut the hair although i'm not willing to

what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck

forgive bout my fake

yeah, i did say i forgive you

yeah, i did say never mind

yeah, i did say it's okay

yeah, i did say don't feel guilty

yeah, i did say everything will be okay

but now i'm the one who feel regret

regret that i forgive you so easily 

every time when i saw my scar

seriously feel like wanna cry

freaking emo

every time when saw my hair

seriously disapointed 

what the hack happened to my hair

 what the hack happened to my dandruff

what the hack happened to my head

PAIN PAIN PAIN

sorry to be negative

but really feel so unfair

every time when i saw charlene or even baby boy's scar

seriously i feel like killing him

because of your "carefulness"

make us so damn happy right now

seriously wanna say FUCK YOU

keep in silent doesn't mean really do forgive

keep on smiling doesn't mean really forget everything

keep up hiding is just wanna trying to forgive and trying to forget

can't even wear nice shirt when hot weather

can't even pin up my hair when hang out

can't even take photo with my long hair

i know it's fact right now

but i really do hope time can past back

so that no one of us will feel suffer

so that no one of us will get to know you

please god

make charlene recover soon

make me and baby boy's scar disappear soon

emo

well

the supergirl finally discharged dy

know that she's getting better and better

quite happy about that

kinda emo today when she told me that she unhappy

we chat for a while

and i found out she's not as strong as i think

suddenly feel a bit heartache

i'm sorry girl

i don't know what can i do so that you can feel better

i really don't know what to do

all we want to let you know is

we do support you every second

and we miss you so so so much

i know it's easy to say stay strong or tale care or everything will be fine soon

sour palm candy, mash potato, marble cake, fruits, card

are all that i can give you

but except this i don't know what i can do for you anymore

but i just hope you can recover soon

i hope i can talk to you at midnight

i hope i can cook with you again

i hope we can crazy all the time

i hope times went back

girl

i miss you so much

don't think you are useless

we need you

your parents need you

so come on

faster recover

we waiting for you

****

and yeah

he's my cute baby boy

just wanna say sorry to you

i always being like a kid make you angry

i promise i will be more mature

tomorrow is chinese valentine

i think

cause i'm not so sure

but between

i love you baby boy

thanks for being my side whenever i need you

thanks for your love

<3

i just wanna everyone around me be happy

scar

i design it

although it's not perfect

but i love it so muchiie

cause is all about me and him

<3

back to normal life

wound totally gone le

but they left scar for me

honestly

i was so so so sad about that

when i looked at the mirror

i was totally sad

what the hack going on

i just don't want any scar

it's that so hard?

baby boy keep help me put on bio oil

i hope it really work

i want to wear my sexy dress

i hope all scar will gone after i wake up tomorrow morning

the stupid dandruff keep rolling in my head

ishhhhhhhhhhhh

i don't want any dandruff!!

****

skip about emo part

coming monday will having first test

but yet i not really ready yet

can i have more time?

i just feel timeless

buy any how i just don't want to fail any of my subject

god bless me

this week the special week

hmmmmmmm

i never went home due to my monday exam

i hope i can have more time to study in hostel

give me more willpower to study and pass my exam

:(

nothing much to say

between tomorrow is our henry gor gor's birthday

and saturday is li quan gor gor's birthday

wish them

advance happy birthday

stay sweet forever

xD

she's fine

the brand new hair style

quite miss my long hair actually

but what to do

have to wait once again

yesterday get sick

flu and fever visit me

feel dizzy and headache

planing to get good revision today

but end up keep sleeping today

ishhhhhhhhh

sorry to them that come acc me do revision

:(

hope i can recover sooooooon

please

****

and yeah

quite happy yesterday

cause early in the morning went hospital acc charlene

her mummy say she now speak very loud dy

that's mean she recover more le

acc her eat lunch

acc her do twice physical therapy

everyone say she improve a lot

and even now she can walk by her own

acc her watch funny movie 

keep laughing like no body

 sleep together

hahahahaha

have a good day with her so muchie

heard that she can discharged and go home on this thursday

feel so happy

hope she will recover soon

and come back soon

hope can be her roomate once again

:)

charlene ah charlene

come back soon please

we miss you

;)

****

and at last i wanna say

my baby boy

happy 3 months anniversary

<3

love you much much