feeling

it's now 00:17 in the midnight

well normally i was in dream in this time

but yeah i still haven't sleep now

waiting my boy to come back

since he is now still chit chating with his friends at outside

don't misunderstand

i allowed him to went for a drink with his friends

i didn't reject because i think both of us have our own personal time

perhaps it's good to have personal time

he will play his game and chat with friends

i will watch my movie and skype with friends too

:)

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kinda hard to explain my feeling now

i am not moody or emo 

but i feel like i'm worry a lots of stuff

recently people around me seem like face a lots of problem

feel like wanna help up

but there's nothing i can do

i just hope everyone around me can be happy

isn't it so difficult?

i know there's no perfect for anyone

but perhaps that live your life with more happiness is better than moody?

i always agree bout that

feel some weird feeling

kinda make myself down actually

hope to help but you can't

ishhhhhhh

weird

but i really did enjoy people telling me their story

i was some kind of people that keep secret very much

so maybe some of them love to talk to me

as some of my friends said

i was like a counselor 

so whenever they faced some problem

they would come to me

and i would tell them some of my opinion or side of view

to make them feel better

yup

i totally hope i can make them more happy

isn't it a happy thing to make people around you feel happy?

i will like to say yes

i hope 'them' will get their own solution to solve their problem

i beg they will know who am i talking about

i just hope everyone can be more happy

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nothing  much for this post actually

just spread out some of my feeling

thanks to charis

she did listen to me talked a lots of rubbish just now

:)

gonna sleep soon

goodnight