dessert time

<3

alright it's saturday morning

wake up at 9am

had my breakfast

and i continue my coursework journey

the coursework and assignment totally torturing me

i was like half way to die

and i decided to text dear 

wanna grab brunch or a chat

and finally she bring me to de pastry for buffet

both of us like damn happy

when we saw all the tart

teehee

had our brunch and lady's talk at there

and for sure both of us keep sms our boy

xD

this is a must

she's my dear

the sunshine girl

:)

****

sometimes i feel quite useless

totally useless

cause i not even can really help

when she need my help

i got no idea how useless am i for her

hmmmmmm

when i saw she crying

i just keep repeating the same word for her

i not even know how really i could comfort her

when i saw she facing some tough problem

i still repeating the same word

i can't help her to solve any of that

what can i do for her

so that she could be more and more happy

i got no idea

and finally

the very finally

i saw she found her true love

she smile everyday

they so sweet everyday

and everytime when she talk bout him

her smiling eyes and her smiling lips

make me feel happy too

macam my daughter finally meet her true love

totally is that feeling

hmmmm

but i'm not the mum lah

= =

at least i know she's happy

that's all

sorry dear

i'm quite useless

i hope you can forgive me

from making you bek cek

from making you sad

and everything

be tough and be happy

i will support you always

and i will be there for you if you need me

anytime

24 hours on call

hahahahha

the represent of our friendship

ILY

****

out of no way

feel quite moody

LOL

i'm random

feel like i'm useless for dear and even my baby boy

i can't even help them when they need me

what should i do

i hope i can be more useful someday

but no matter how

i will try my very best to make them happy

because they're important in my life

;)

evon tee yee woon

stop thinking bout all those negative stuff

be tough

be happy

;)

i will get through all those problem soon

very soon

*tomorrow go dating with baby boy

can't wait

<3

sweet

teehee

;) 

it's me again

****

due to yesterday night hyper tired

around 8pm i went to sleep

sleep until i didn't realize i got so much misscalls and messages

but i didn't on silent mode what

hmmmm

too tired already

ishhhhh

wake up early in the morning

waiting dear come and fetch me to the funeral

at last change time to 10am

so i went sleep once again

not enough sleep although i sleep so damn early yesterday night

@@

at last dear reached

went bangsar village for breakfast

after that went to the funeral

dear cried today

i don't know how am i going to comfort her

hope she will be okay soon

gao dim everything around 1 something

feel so heartache and i try my best not to cry

although i don't know him

but i don't know why i feel quite sad

thanks to him

make me understand that have to appreciate everyone in our life

no one do know what will happen next

R.I.P

****

after done everything

we heading to kota damansara

guess what

we went to find our boy

:)

fetched bevis and kenneth

then heading to dreamz bakery once again

having our brunch there

two cakes and two drinks

but four of us

<3

both of them

teehee

they damn sweet man

<3

wish to see dear smile everyday like these few days

;)

after that went for some chat then fetched our boy back home

hehehehehe

after that went pasar malam with dear

****

me and my mr.right

<3

out of sudden

make a wrong turn
once or twice

dug my way out blood and fire

bad decision

that's alright

welcome to my silly life

:)

currently addicted to few songs

fuckin' perfect , one in a million , out of this club

keep repeat repeat and repeat

non stop

nothing much reason

i just fuckin' love this few songs

****

a hyper crazy week i been through

since two years ago

i never been soooooo crazy before

and yeah

i did it this week

except college,coursework and assignment

we did watch two movies this week

if i not forgotten

we did hang around at kota damansara , ss2 , kuchai lama  and also puchong

sounds normal but special for us

and of course we did some crazy stuff

ignore it cause i won't ever tell

teehee

****

wednesday

after accounting class

had lunch with dear and kenneth

after lunch

three of us went for brunch again at ss2

when we planing where to go next

dear received call from her sister

and we found out that

dear's brother passed away

we was like....

shocked i think 

and we decided rush to hospital

between we did not know where's the hospital located

it was to far for us

but we still decided to explore 

after make some wrong turn 

finally we reached serdang hospital

saw dear's mum and sister

feel so heartache when i saw they were crying there

i can't imagine how pain is it to see your beloved one leave you

nothing much i can say

R.I.P

i heard dear say her brother get accident last 3 weeks ago

that stupid fuckin van driver bang him and went without any sign

fuck him seriously

at least you called ambulance or whatever

you just went without do anything?

are you okay?

i beg you can't sleep everynight

i beg you feel scare every second

i hope you can get your punished soon!

i don't know what can i do for dear

but no matter how i will there to comfort her

hope she will be alright

****

yeah

remain the same thing

do appreciate everyone around us

cause we can't expect what will happen next

don't make ourselves regret one day

i don't want any regret

life

life full of unexpected

out of control

sometimes you have to learn how to let go

so that you can get more

but sometimes you have to learn how to keep it

so that you won't loss something

complicated

****

wish to have life that full of peaceful

but impossible life without challenge

sometimes we're not the one to choose

currently quite down

lots of stuff happened out of sudden

can't take this anymore

feel like giving up everything

but i ask back myself 

am i such a loser?

this is only part of challenge in my life

then i have to give up now?

no way man

there's for sure one way to solve it

and i have to find it out

so i will try my very best to solve it

i hope everything will be more easier to settle

****

it's monday again

time to wake up early and went to college

as usual wait dear come fetch me

talking,laughing and singing inside her lil chubby kelisa

or even we called it special sport car

that's the thing that some of us know that

if you try to drive her car

then you will know what i mean

teehee

reached cova square

breakfast with my boy and kenneth

four of us again

LOL

talked with my boy today

settled down everything

and i hope this time really do settled all the thing

i don't hope the same thing repeat and repeat again

all i know is i really do love him

i hope he will know that

after breakfast

start our 1st class

accounting class

hmmmmm

blur blur class

maybe my accounting not too pro

so i can't get what ms.elaine teach

but luckily got out dai lou kenneth teach me a bit

hehehehe

thanks lah king kong

break time i never went out for lunch

i stay inside class and finished up part of my coursework

and i ate cake for lunch

met my boy for about 10 minutes

talking about nonsense and my spm thinggy 

after that continue back to next class

econs class

keep laugh inside class

laugh like nobody

i memang gila today

and i don't know why

but i wish everyday would be like today

at least i enjoy the moment very much

love econs so damn much among all subjects

of course i love ms.ooi also

teehee

she's cute and sporting

attended her class without any stress

feel so happy today

at least i really did learn a lot today

even dear also said so

after classes

i bring dear back to my housing area there to have our dinner

fried rice,fried mi-hon and the saito fish cake

teehee

both of us ate a lot today

muahahahah

cause both of us didn't eat lunch today

:)

a simple day

but i love the simple very much

i hope everyday will like today

****

as dear say

we can't control everything

so just let it be

live everyday like no tomorrow

time can prove everything

either stay or leave

that's all

as i always tell people around me

appreciate everyone and everyday

so that won't regret one day

regret more painful than loss

something that effect me twice

sunday again

didn't expect that i will hang out today

thought wanna be guai lui today

but end up hang out with dear

<3

after picked me up

dear planed to fetch me find my boy

thanks dear very nuch

she always make time for me and my boy

after that three of us heading to cheras

to find kenneth

thought wanna give him a surprise

the most yong sui thing is i still need to act man voice

walao

ngo jip sao mm dou lorh

><

at the end we decided to call him and ask him

where you stay huh?

YONG SUI man

ahahahahahah

sakae sushi for brunch

haha pan mee for lunch

recently my dear eat a lot

wow

last time was me

but nowadays her turn

muahahahaha

she really do eat a lot

macam.....

dah ada

xD

at last back home

****

something bad happened today

spoi my mood 99

but at last talk nicely

and end up nothing

i will remember what i promise

and i hope you will remember yours too

i don't hope this thing happen once again

i hope everyhting will be okay

drive home without mood

but i know my skills getting better

at least i won't make dear worry or whatever

sorry dear

suppose to hear what you wanna say

but end up you had to solve my problem

and saw me cry

i'm sorry

tomorrow i'm yours

teehee

;)

no matter how

both of us will get through all of these together

so don't worry

you're not alone

hmmmmm

and all i wanna say is

i do love my boy very very very much

<3

****

talk with daddy today

evrything wasn't that good

i got no idea how am i going to solve all my problem

can someone please help me in this

i think i have not enough willpower for that

damn tired

but no matter how

i will still choose to think positive

i believe that there sure have a way to solve the problem

tomorrow still a sunshine day

;)

add oil

evon tee yee woon

the damn best day

woots

is saturday morning

shopping mode on

with dear,kenneth,my boy and henry

kenneth is the driver today

teehee

thanks kenneth for fetch us go shopping

he drive serena today

woohoo

so cool man

xD

after fetch me and cecilia

five of us heading to manjalara for breakfast

diet time so my breakfast only 1 banana,1 red apple and 1 green apple juice

teehee

healthy right?

****

after that heading to the curve

sales man

feel so itchy wanna buy shirts lah

but at last i control myself

only bought a bracelet

same with dear one

we bought it together

full of star and smile face one

teehee

love it very much

<3

after that we went brand outlet

me and my boy bought two shirts

PINK

teehee

planing to wear together next time

and i bought him one shirt secretly

after that i force him to change the shirts immediately

i know i'm crazy

but who cares

hehehehehe

after shopping

we went kim gary for lunch

honestly

the food there ma ma dei jek

no more next time

and the most funny thing is

four of us accompany henry went hair cut

5 persons went in only 1 need hair cut

so paiseh

xD

woohoo

our henry looks very leng zai after hair cut

me and dear keep say he very leng zai

xD

i know he damn happy one

keep tahan tahan only

hahahahaha

****

the last part

we went ikea

muahahahahahah

me and dear turn into crazy girls

keep wah yer walao i want

xD

feel so excited when we saw all those bed

and i keep imagine bout my future house

LOL

and they keep say i still dreaming

so fish you know ah

hello

dream also cannot meh

hmph

the most happy thing is

my boy promise me in the future

he will bring me here again to buy furniture for our house

teehee

don't worry i believe in you

i got lots of time to wait

we still young

;)

at last back home

<3

****

damn happy today

cause of my dear keep smiling all the day

it's been long time i never see her so happy

glad that she's back

the sunshine girl

she did not pretend that she's happy today

i saw the real her

<3

i hope that king kong will always protect and love the lil dino

:)

****

reach home with tired mode

feel like sleeping

but at last didn't sleep

feel so moody actually

mummy says maybe daddy wanna change me to segi KL

 i really don't want

i use to study at kota damansara

i don't need any change

just let me stay in hostel or whatever

but please don't ask me to change

everything was fine now

why i have to do any change?

my lecturer are good

my friends are good

the environment are good

everything are just almost perfect for me

please don't take me out of this nice dream

I DON'T NEED ANY CHANGE

i rather stay at hostel myself

i rather to learn to be more independent

i rather eat outside everyday

i rather i don't have a car

i rather i will damn miss my house

i rather don't need to hang out always

i rather don't have much pocket money

but just please please please don't change me to KL

i beg you all

what am i gonna do now

think positive
:)

recently

as i say

i'm getting fatter and fatter

but i don't mind

i will eat more and more

;)

increase weight again

feel like i need a diet 

but i don't think i want to force myself to get away from food

food is something to reduce stress for me

so no food no life 

:(

****

recently nothing much to update

everything remain the same

everyday wake up early in the morning

don't feel like going to college

force myself to wake up

everyday use the same road to college

same view different view everyday

depends on my mood

everyday meet all my friends and boy

feel happy and safe

i love that feeling very much

everyday meet lecturer and learn new kowledge

quite stress quite tired

but feel satisfied when i get to learn more stuff

everyday hope can dismiss class early

thinking what can i do next

what can do with all my beloved friends

****

going to have a change soon

feel so uncomfartable

but i have to force myself use to it

recently...

our monster's gang got bit different 

our dear henry and hamster use to be more and more close

but we seldom hang out together anymore

but at least we still quite close

and even we always zat each other in class

:)

my dear cecilia going to change to taylors soon

can i don't let go?

i guess i got no choice

i must let go

the most funniest thing in this world is

i have to act nothing while actually my heart was crying every moment

i will miss her a lot a lot

miss the time we spent together

miss the time we sot together

or even miss the time we argue

every moment that we been through

i will damn miss it

promise me to study hard there

and promise to get a new life there

out of all those emo stuff

and i will still there for you anytime you need me

ILY

don't try to forget me!

friendship forever right?

<3

****

recently problems visit me

too much for me

and i feel totally tired

and i consider to let go everything

fed up

why must it everything have to be so complicated

can i have solution for every problem or even challenge

i don't need more

i just need a simple peaceful life

that's all

feel like crying out

can i?

****

can i sleep as much as i can

panda eyes visit me

i need more sleeping time

:(

give me a willpower that can bring me get through all those challenge please

i wish my dear will get more happiness than me

i don't mind to give her mine too

as long she can smile always

may god bless her good luck in everything

post without photo

photo upload soon...

start today's post without photo

****

early in the morning wake up and get prepare

today is day to celebrate my boy's early birthday

daddy fetch me to college at 9am

without traffic jam

i reached college at 9:15am

due to kenneth and dear haven't reach

so i decided to find my boy first

having some chit chat with him

and of course we always zat each other

love the way he looking at me

ILY boy

kenneth reach at 10am

and dear going by her own

so we went 1U for movie tickets first

luckily we went early

after our turn to buy tickets

huiyohhh

many people man

we decided to watch punished

not very nice but quite meaningful for me

remind me that have to appreciate everyone around me

and of course our lunch at sushi zanmai 

teehee

;)

and i bought four little green tea cakes from toast box for my boy

sing birthday song for him and gave him the card that i make for him

not a perfect celebration but i hope he will be happy

thanks for everything my baby boy

i love you very much

happy 19th birthday

<3

****

quite worry bout dear

i hope i can make her happy every second

maybe no one will know how much she important to me

but i know it very well

even my baby boy also feel jealous

he think i love my dear more than him

sorry boy

she really do mean a lot to me

sometimes i use to be so silly

sometimes i use to be very stupid

sometimes i use to be very useless

i'm sorry for that my dear

i didn't mean to make you down or moody

and even i don't hope you to be like that

when all the time you smile

my mood will be very happy too

when you are down or sad

i can feel the same feeling too

i know i repeated this a lots of time

but i don't mind to repeat once again

you really do important to me

and no one could replace you in my heart

i'm sorry if sometimes or always i make you angry or down

hope you can forgive me

****

recently out of mood

cause of some stupid problem

but i'm glad that everyone of them still beside me

i won't keep moody cause of some problem that i can't solve forever

i will try my best to let myself more happy

because of them

i will be more tough

random

firstly act cute first

teehee

long time don't have that mood to capture

and finally i got new picha

;)

recently

pimples come visit me

:(

idk why

haihs

after drink that kampai and eat that panadol

straightly pop up two pimples

leave me alone please

****

yesterday early in the morning

dear text me and ask me to hang out with her

of course on larh

hehehe

we went to sent some banners to customers

and then we heading for breakfast

woohoo

kuchai lama

fish head mee hon

hyper nice man

enjoy the morning very much

after that we went pj ss4 digital mall to buy some stuff

and survey some laptop price

teehee

i'm going to have my own laptop

and the proud thing is i use my money to buy

although i didn't pay the full amount

hehehehe

after finished up all the thing

then we heading to old town to have brunch

chit chat and planning something there

that day dear make me laugh like nobody

macam kisiao liao

no more image larh

muahahahah

i force her to bite her own lips without talking,eating and laughing

i know it's sound sot and weird

but it's fun

muahahahah

at last she laugh

*top secret

she did eat a lots that day

;)

****

night time

we heading to LCCT to fetch aunty susan and michelle

they come from indonesia

teehee

went there and bought chocolate for simson gor

<3

due to the flight delayed

so me,daddy,mummy and kai ma went mcd

and i get 1 more blue cup

muahahahaha

skip all those stupid stuff

and today dear text me

i hope she will be alright

i will there for her

****

early in the morning

we bring aunty susan and michelle go genting

actually i didn't feel any excited

i rather sleep at home

cause i'm too tired

:(

took this photo when i'm hyper boring

ishhhhhh

raining heavily there

super damn cold

:(

hanging around and having lunch there

mcd again

muahahaha

and guess what this time i get extra 3 blue cups

teehee

;)

after that we back to batu caves

@@

i really can't move when i reach there

too tired!!

so i wait them down there and eating ice-cream

:)

****

today got no much mood to update my bloggie

done something wrong

and make someone angry

all i wanna say is

i'm sorry

no next time

this is what i promise

hope you can forgive me

lastly a picture at batu caves while i waiting them

i hope tomorrow is a sunshine day for dear and me

<3

the latest

few days never update bloggie

kind of busy recently

assignment and coursework make me feel faint

honestly this few days really a lots of things happened

all funny stuff

make me laugh until non stop 

look like a crazy girl

the first time we try car wash at petrol station

the first or manybe many times before i asked dear to break the rules by using wrong way

the few times that i drove like crazy and almosttttttt bang car

the first time i drunk like hell keep talking nonsence and headache like hell

lovely memory for me

the days with them is perfect time for me

there isn't any worry when i was with them

i don't mind to repeat once again

i really do love you all

<3

****

planing to move out to hostel

but that isn't easy actually

me and cecilia keep discuss bout all those questions

every minute pop out one problem

damn

headache

i hope everything is that easy like 123

life is complicated

I KNOW

but at least don't too tough for us

we're only 18

****

alright

i was drunk yesterday afternoon

sounds weird

normally people drunk at night

actually i can drink a bit

but due to yesterday i drink too fast

so i get drunk

and the most fish thing is

i cry like hell in front of dear,bevis and kenneth

sorry dude

spoi all those enjoyable mood

please forgive me

no next time

as what i promise

back to college 

headache like nobody

keep talking nonsence and kena force by them eat one panadol

then fall asleep for 1 hour

sorry for ffk apple piee 

cause i really don't think i'm able to attend the bbq section

and sorry to my dear cecilia

make her wait me for 2 hours

sorry dudes!

everything will be okay soon

i know that

  

****

don't worry

be happy

:)

all about today

i know it's been a long time i never upload photo

i'm sorry

recently out of mood to take photo

no matter how much i take photo

i won't get satisfied for it

don't feel like capture anymore

i'm getting fatter and fatter

:)

****

remain the same

today we having accounting and qm class

two stressful classes

one thing different

my dear cecilia back to sunshine mode

she's like a angel today

angel with true smile and true feeling

feel like hug her tight and say

WELCOME BACK DEAR

<3

having breakfast with the gangs 

and today celine,nicole and cherish join us

woots

breakfast at kota damansara old town

due to lack of time

my eating speed increase

finish my breakfast in between 5 minutes

and honestly i love li quan's ear very much

only the ear,left hand side ear only

teehee

cause with the ear ring that i help him to buy

xD

nice lala man

****

alright
back to college

accounting still remain the same
confuse me a lot
ishhhhh

after that the course that i LOVE so much
= =
qm by miss rosemary
but luckily i still can get what she say in class
at least i try my best to done the equations
charlene help me a lot
thanks girl
<3

after class dismiss
woots
fresh air man
xD

went to ice room for brunch
dessert
but end up something happened spoil all my mood
thanks to li quan and my mum

i know i got wrong too
and i'm sorry again

the main point is the desserts there totally sucks
NO NEXT TIME

after that second round go for dinner
at last back home

****

and we thought tomorrow is our off day
since tuesday qm class start next week
but end up miss elaine give us replacement class
thanks a lot
= =

 and the good good news
tomorrow having accounting test again
gosh
i bet i cant sleep tonight

good luck lah monster gangs
:(

after class
maybe heading to sunway
teehee

****

this is what her true feeling

thanks for telling me the truth girl

ILY

mother and frienship day

woots

it's mother's day

and guess what

due to i'm busy recently 

so i didn't even have time to make a hand-make card for mummy

i'm sorry mummy

and i promise i will give a better present for replace

between 

ILY mummy

<3

you're best mum in the world

even tough you always so ngam cham

xD

****

daddy not at home yesterday

so we didn't have celebration yesterday

i just hug mummy and give her a kiss

i promise when i get my car

i will bring you whenever you want to go

:)

your girl driving skill very ON one lorh

teehee

afternoon get dear cecilia message

plan to have dinner together

woots

she save me from the prison

thanks lau tze yan

<3

****

1st destiny 

dreamz bakery

woots

nice environment there

feel the peaceful and happiness there

with all those music box's music

feel very comfartable

i hope everyday will have the same feeling like this

:)

have a long long long talk with dear

and i think i talk a lot yesterday

= =

cause i dont wannt repeat the next time

i hope she will understand what i wanna bring to her

i found out actually she actually do let go a lot

and i'm glad to see that

feel like hugging her and say ILY

but hmmmm

we don't use to do like that

we're SHY

buahahahaha

she told me everything and same so i

no more stress

weeeeee

;)

we do write our wish on a paper

and as i say

lets go renew next year

080512

friendship forever

ILY

<3

everything will be fine

*between i feel like crying when i talk  to you

cause seem like you wanna cry too

so i know i'm not the one have to cry

:)

****

second destiny

island cafe

NO ALCOHOL

xD

second round chat at there

this time is stupid talk

laugh like nobody

and even i teach her to break the undang

by doing something...

muahahahah

she say i very gila one

but i admit

buahahahaha

****

and guess what

today is a brand new day

and i hope is a new start for her

she gave me the ring

and i was so surprise

the ring is her whole life

and i'm proud of you

LAU TZE YAN

lets fight all those bad together

:) 

i saw the true smile

tough girl

about friendship

yeshh

today is all about her

my bestie ever

know me well than myself

except my dad and mum

she is the one who can scold me and everything

she mean a lot to me

that maybe she cant understand that forever

****

been through a lot of stuff with her

best friends before

hate each other before

angry each other before

normal friends before

BESTIE now

why i post this article?

to thanks her for be with me when i was freaking down

she's the one who let me know what is friendship

and she's the one who help me when i face a lot of rubbish problem

and even she's the one who gave me a lot of advise when i really need someone

sometimes i will blame myself when i cant help her when she need help

but no matter how

i'm going to give her fully support

or even i can lend her my shoulder anytime or whenever she need

just wanna to let her know

she's the only one that no one can replace in my heart

the only hyper bestie

<3

*dont ever give up without my permission

and i will there to support you 

add oil for everything

****

back to my lfe

today was economics class

i hate it very much

make me so confuse and headache

ishhhhh

and something happened this morning

out of mood in class

and i was trying my best to control myself

since i promise myself and also cecilia 

but at last i cant stop my tears

straightly drop out automatically

and i keep hiding from letting others saw it

at last class dismiss

and i ran out from the class to the toilet

crying like nobody

dear coming to comfort me

thanks

i'm really okay bout that

at last talk to him nicely

and cry like hell

luckily everything settle

and i wish this stuff wont ever happen again

i will appreciate more

<3

and thanks for the people who comfort me

i will be okay

as i say before cry or emo just not over half hour

then i will back to crazy mode again

:)

lunch at aunty lucy

with the gangs

back class late with stupid reason

continue work on economics questions

and lastly enjoy 50% off starbucks after class

****

i know maybe is tough for me to start all those coursework and assignment

but no matter how,i wont give up easily 

i will try my best on it

so do you my dear

lets fight all those bad stuff together

and i know we will make it

gambateh leo baby and aries baby

:)

i'm the one that you cant be

tough leo girl

awwwwww

oh yeah

thursday morning

<3

alright

is glt class again...

and honestly

we didnt get any prepare for the plot and character

muahahahah

after meet all of them

then we just straightly went into class

i think miss elly guess so dy

so she let us 'half hour' to discuss for the plot thinggy

and all of us use up 2 hours i think to finish up all the thing

thanks to kenneth

help me to write all those stupid plot

i'm the director

muahahaha

i create a gila plot

miss elly love our storyline

woots

ahahaha

stay tuned for our drama 

hehehehe

interesting one

:)

and it's time to prepare all script dy

add oil my dear

****

after class dismiss 

six of us went a&w for....

breakfast or lunch?

i pun tak tahu

xD

after that we went e-curve watch fast5

woohooo

damn nice movie man

i dont mind to watch second time or third

hehehehe

and i keep imagine something

muahahaha

they thought i gila dy

this movie is a must

five star for this movie

must watch

:)

after movie

we straightly go kota damamsara eat snowflake

woots

today i try different dessert

nice nice nice nice!!

having great time with all of them

love them much much

<3

outing again next time

****

alright

is time to do my economic

between

i dont know how to do

:(

and we got assignment dy!!

gonna die soon