true words for him

lifeless

i am not making people envy or show up

but i just feel lifeless after finish my very last semester

my degree intake will be on September

but now only May?

it's still April ah moi

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everyday was like wake up > breakfast > tv/online

lunch > tv/laptop > nap > tv/laptop

dinner > tv/laptop > sleep

repeating the same

gosh!

the most terrible thing is i can't even meet my boy

i was so so moody about that

due to his revision to prepare for final exam

we can't even text more or talk more

how sad

:(

sometimes i might thing i am too stick

or even too depend on him

but somehow i just can't control myself

i have to learn more independent 

****

gonna work start on next month

wish me good luck for that

;)

will able to work until August if i am not mistaken

cause September only is my turn to intake

can't wait 

degree please wait for me

****

i am a girl that very easy to satisfy 

every little thing or detail will make me happy without any reason

the best thing in my life is the moment when i fall in love with you

went through so much of difficulty and challenges 

yet you still hold me so tight and hug me so tight

thank you so much for being so patient for my weird attitude

i promise that i will hold your hand without letting go

i meant it

i might not able to be a damn pretty girl friend

i might not able to be a well chef girl friend

i might not able to be a best cleaner girl friend

yet i will do my very best to give you the best

i might be kinda lazy sometimes

i might be kinda childish sometimes

i might be kinda troublesome sometimes

but please trust that i didn't even mean to make you angry or sad for any second

sorry for being so troublesome

stop thinking that you are not that good to me

yet actually i am same too

but no one is perfect

i love your everything

perfect and even imperfect 

sorry that i might always repeating the same words

but it's really from the bottom of my heart

i love you and i will always support no matter what

thank you for being there with me 

my baby boy

everything to sacrifice seem to be worth

when i enjoying the time with you and my family

<3

****

i wish i can be more self independent 

and i can be more strong enough  to get through all those challenges 

aza fighting evon tee

;)

what a happy holidays

finally

i finished my last semester of my foundation

went through all the exam

some excited some disappointed

for me half half

LOL

hope everything went well

i don't want any bad thing happen

god bless me please

without thinking so much

i am sure what i want to get fr my degree

since year 3 only choose the main course

so for now i am still didn't try to change my mind

:)

yeshh

this is the photo i decided to ask them capture the so called last photo

since we going to fight apart

all the best to them

they are my best memory in my foundation life

proud to be with them

****

people feel damn freaking happy since it's our sem break

my break until september

should i show my happiness?

but seriously i got no that excited mood for the so called holidays

the main reason i think most of the people know

gonna miss my baby boy so so much

he will be back his hometown on 6th of may

and we can't meet each other for 2 months

how sad

:(

i am not wanna stick with him all day

but at least make us meet once a week?

i just feel so so sad for my holidays

and yet mummy ask me to go ipoh for vacations

i was like

dah~ no mood. don't ask me. i anything.

sigh

****

gonna be the very first year anniversary for both of us

i love you baby

from the deep bottom of my heart

<3

so what moody

finally finished my quantitative method

i was freaking stress inside the exam hall

the questions seem like very easy

but i'm the one who didn't know how to solve it

seriously i will fail this time

but i already did my very best

feel like wanna cry after came out from the exam hall

but why should i have to show my moody face to make others moody too

so i decided to smile and joke as usual 

:)

as baby said

when you already did your best and since already passed

then why not stop moody

cause we already can't change any pass 

****

sometimes i knew myself was troublesome

i always know that

and i trying my best t change it

seriously

i'm not those people that only say but without action

i will prove it that i can be more independence 

:)

feel like heart talk with my baby boy

meet him on wednesday

tears rolling

final exam is here

and i am freaking stress

intro to business was my first subject to go

went kinda well

and i was so confident to get an A for that

and here come the freaking stress subject 

quantitative method

you might laugh at me why so damn easy math i can't solve

but seriously f*ing sorry

i am a noob in mathematics 

went qian's house yesterday morning 

thought can finish revise and learn all chapter

but unfortunately the only 5 chapters i also can't finish

that's why i am such a failure

back home with without any mood

and i force myself not to cry and keep do all the exercises that miss gave us

but i can't control for half an hour

i cried like no body

shouldn't let mum know that

but she came in without knocked the door

seriously don't ask me don't cry or take it easy

it would only make me cried more hard

forcing myself to do

keep on disturb nicole and qian

did you hear before teaching math through sms?

yes we did yesterday

did exercise for 5 minutes and cried for half hour

baby boy called me yesterday night

accompany talked for almost half hour and keep on comfort me

but seriously i cried more hard than that

thanks to him 

after half hour i stopped crying and decided to go sleep since it was already 12 something

i love him so so much

at first force myself not to on my laptop at all

but then mum said must relax so i decided to update my blog

maybe is what i want to express myself in here

is the very last chance in foundation

is the very important chance for the very last semester

i must do it very well

i hope i can

sorry for disappear yet i'm back

yeshhh

i had been abandon my blog for a long period

forgive about my laziness

what's the latest from me?

this is my latest photo

looked so pale 

and i dont know why

but some how i just feel i'm getting mature

and so i had move to kota damansara

didn't stay at hostel anymore

but then i still miss my hostel life so so so much

maybe it was much more freedom staying at hostel

and of course i can always find my boy to share my thing to him

but some how thank you daddy and mummy

the main purpose to move to kota damansara is just because of me

if i'm not study here

i think they will prefer other places

not very big house yet very warm and overall make me feel very satisfied

photo will be upload the next post

part of the garden for my new house

i just love it without any reason 

i hope everything will be well after move in

:)

there will be house warming soon

the first house warming for dad's friends was last sunday

and the next turn will be families and my friends 

coming soooooon

after moving in my new house

have to thank a lot to charis

she is the one who come and fetch me every morning to class and fetch me home

thank you very much

and of course friends that fetch me back home sometimes

****

and today is the last day for my foundation life

kinda sad and moody actually

why?

i dont know

feel like get used to it 

from the first day i came 

i met them and until now

we are good together

and somehow now we have to separate to different future 

i just miss them so much

especially the girls

thanks to them

i had wonderful college time

because of them 

i learned a lot

love the way we share our heart thing together without any hiding

appreciate the foundation life

final is around the corner

i will try my very best to face it

hope i can go for degree successful 

degree

here i come

:)

****

gonna apart with my boy for 2 months

:(

due to sem break he have to back hometown

so i have to wait him here 

hope that 2 months will pass sooon

tomorrow will be a great day

i always pray for that

:)

simple post to update myself from disappear so long

stay tuned my next post

gonna be fun

have a nice day



*ps
i found out a weird thing
i dont know why there can be so much of people from other countries get to know my blog
and the only post they viewed is the post 'LANVENDER'

why?
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