christmas gift

finally it's christmas

done nothing 

without any celebration mode

woke up around 10

had my massimo bread for breakfast

christmas movie is a must

:)

had lunch with mum just now

and suddenly my mood turned bad

mum's friend ask me about why my left hand seem so weird?

and i get stunned 

after that i realized that was my scar

yeah the scar

it's hard to disappear

it might be stay with me forever

:)

miss those day i wore any sexy dress that i love

anytime anywhere

but what i prefer now is t-shirt

LOL

cover my back

cover my hand

:)

how long to wait until can wear sexy dress with full of confident?

no one knows

:)

christmas eve

it's christmas eve

and guess what

no any party no any plan

just stay at home

:)

who say christmas must celebrate outside

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i'm not christian 

although i didn't celebrate christmas

but i love the environment and the feeling of christmas

and i love christmas song too

this is one of my favorite

<3

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kinda disappointed

cause baby isn't be my side on christmas or even new year

but it's okay

we did celebrate it earlier 

;)

and we did celebrate tonight too

by using this way

merry christmas to him

and i love him

<3

just like that

post without photo

it's been a disappointed holidays for me

sad more than happy and excited

the only happy thing was i can stay with dad n mum for whole holidays

they treated me very well when i came home

love them very much

the disappointed thing was baby would not be able to be at my side

how sad 

:(

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no matter how

i met him this monday

gave him a little surprise

stayed by his side for 1 night

enjoy the time with him and his family

<3

genting was cold but he keep hug me

i felt warm, very warm

the next time we meet is 8th of january

i miss him

:(

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went shopping with parents and relative yesterday 

we went leisure mall

didn't bought anything

just window shopping

today daddy and mummy decided to bring me go 1Utama

i was like no mood to shopping at all

i mean i am tired actually

mummy and daddy bought me few shirts and shoes

i love it but i still not felt any happiness

i guess i miss my baby boy again

....

:(

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tomorrow aunty and my cousin sister will come KL

can't wait

long time didn't meet them

hope i can enjoy my christmas and new year

:)

him

ooowh my godness

i miss him

:(

wish

i wish i could be at genting on this sunday

i wish i could buy a ticket and go gua musang immediately 

i wish he could be with here right now 

i wish i could hug him right now

i wish i could celebrate christmas, new year countdown or even our 8th months anniversary together

wish come true?

i don't need present

i don't need surprise 

i need my baby boy

early christmas feeling

i know it's too early to say merry christmas

but this greeting specially for my beloved baby boy

the most terrible holidays for me

almost one month can't meet him

what we can do is just skype, text and phone call

can't even hug and smell him

i was so so so down this few days after he went back hometown

maybe it's like some kind annoying for others

" omg! this girl is so damn annoying. just one month can't meet what

no one understand that feeling

almost everyday smell him

almost everyday kiss him

almost everyday hug him

almost every second he is beside

and now we have to be apart for one month

i was freaking moody

i wish time flies

so that i can meet him once again

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early christmas celebration with him

at sunway giza

normal photo capture

but full of meaning

the early christmas present for him

hope he will love it

;)

i bought it and ask him to pay back me when he is back

hahahahaha

yeah i wanna marry him

omg

i am so so so crazy

xD

every time i see this ring

i know i am the most happy girl in the world

thanks to him

<3

sorry that i keep crying when i skype with you

i miss you so so so much

remember to take care

****

overnight at charis's house on saturday night
chat with her until 3:30 am
stand for the hungry feeling and force to sleep
keep laugh and keep talk
hahahaha

thanks to her
make my day feel very happy
and her brother is very cute with his big eyes
full of energy all the time
LOL

she did tell me one sentence
human always have their own selfish thinking
it's correct
i totally agree about that

i felt that by myself
but what to do
human are selfish
include myself

i just keep telling myself
do the thing i have to do
do thing that won't hurt others

it's okay to be hurt
gain experience
no pain no gain
right?

thanks to the pain
because it give you happiness after pain
:)

went time square with them yesterday

went shopping, lunch and movie

enjoy the day but kinda exhausted 

receive two early christmas present 

the ring from him

and the snow crystal ball with small teddy inside from her

thanks to them

they make my day

:)

photo will upload soon

hehe

to be continue 

recent

it's been a long long time i didn't update my blog

yes really long long time

can you see the dust in my blog?

hahahaha 

just kidding

still in exam week

but for us we like so free right now

because we had finish the three tough stupid subject

accounting, quantitative method and economic

hooray

just left academic english and moral studies

hmmmmm for this two

like so whatever

:P

see see see

this is what we all had when exam 

messy table with full of notes

and of course full of junk food

hello 

no junk food i will fall asleep lah

:(

honestly 

this semester not really stress like last semester

i don't know why

because of this i kinda lazy this semester

i don't know how my result will be

omfg

and yeah

our dear celine back from US on our first day exam

phew

luckily she rush on time

:)

and thanks a lot to her

she bought us a lot of thinggy

hehehehe

love her so much

she bought me two stitch little thing

as she know i love stitch so damn much

<3

and she even bought four of us a coach small purse

really thanks to her

i love it very much

and the chocolate

:)

i hope exam will over soon

and holidays please come soon

i hope to get some rest

escape from all those notes and lecture

><

but the most sad thing is i can't meet my baby 1 month

:(

he have to back hometown

but it's okay

i know he will miss me

hehehehe

christmas and chinese new year coming soon

teehee

<3

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recently addicted to tetris battle

hahahaha

nice game!!

enjoy the time playing with my baby and friends

baby use to have happy face when he win

and put a sad face when he lose

so cute

<3

and yeah 

almost forgot

today get a bad news from baby

he said charis had an accident

i was like what?! are she okay?

omg

luckily she is fine

but her car had a big damage

the head lamp almost damage

:(