october 25---abandon

i can be happy girl

but i can be emo girl too

depends on what i want

today first day back school after two days break

feel boring to hear all nonsence from the principle

but today we get to sing school song very well

maybe last 3 years i never sing school song nicely

but i do sing nicely today

after 2 months

i got no more chance to sing again with all friends

i enjoy sing very much

=)

having perdagangan bengkel today

quite boring but i just keep copying all notes from teacher

at leats i wanna get B in my spm

i will try my best

after recess we use to be very noisy in class

until teacher cannot tahan then scold us

form5 students use to be like that

ahahahaha xD

after that we keep chat and play at behind

still playing water with friends

until my school uniform wet

but quite happy

we enjoy laughing very much

i love my buddies

=)



freaking tired today

but still heading to tuition centre

tuition for 5 hours

then cm acc me go bakery shop

we buy cake and fruit n cheese tart

two people keep choose cake there

macam aunty xD

i bought cake for my tuition teacher

and i also buy cheese tart for my ji mui

bring to them tomorrow

hehe

and tomorrow we got surprise

we plan it since last thursday

hope they will enjoy it

i do all my best to make it perfect

=)

use to be emo this few days

fake smile again

tired la wey

actually i didn't know why i such emo too

just feel like a lot of thing in my heart

but it's hard to voice out

sometimes i quite hate people who abandon me 

they find me when they need someone to comfort them

they find me when they face spme problem

they find me when they feel lonely

they find me when they no one to find

what am i in your mind

toy?

stuff?

or any word that make me more cheap?

and you just abandon me when you don't need me

even never sms for concern or what

or maybe just say they treat me as a stranger better

i know that you can't expect people treat you good after you did treat people good

but at least don't be so cruel

you need people to comfort

same do i

i'm not stone or toy

i got feeling too

i think even stone and toy also have feeling

but really thanks to the people who abandon me

thanks a lot

at least you train me to be more tough

at least you train me to be myself 

 hey

i'm devil

i'm not angel

so please call me devil



tell me that you don't need me

and i will stay away from you after this